Losing Game
from the heights - track 1
Every step I take lands like another blow
I can't seem to shake you no matter where I go
I never gave you a reason to hate me
You never needed one though.
Chasing shadows round with blood and sweat adorned
Sending postcards from the eye of the storm
I fear four walls may suffocate me
But oh, there ain't no place like home.
Your reckless protagonist
Picking up steam to hit the high
Retracting my wax wings
Just as soon as I touch the sky
Fell from grace to hit the ground running
Saving face by saying nothing
I feel my whole body ache, but nothing tender, nothing gained
And as for those who pray that I'd stumble,
I'd scale walls to watch their empires crumble
I'm all in, but make no mistake, I ain't got nothing to my name
Might as well play a losing game.
Every weight I carry is mine to bear for good
No thanks necessary, any soldier would
A single word may complicate things
Might as well stay misunderstood
It's all I can do to keep from making waves
Kicking dust up just to dig another grave
I know there's something out there that's worth saving
But I'll be damned if I wait to be saved.
Fell from grace to hit the ground running
Saving face by saying nothing
I feel my whole body ache, but nothing tender, nothing gained
And as for those who pray that I'd stumble,
I'd scale walls to watch their empires crumble
I'm all in, but make no mistake, I ain't got nothing to my name
Might as well play a losing game.
Run To You
from the heights - track 2
Darling, don't you dare look back now
You know what's behind
Didn't used to drink to black out,
But you're still on my mind
Sinking like a stone, I thought I'd find you in the wreckage
You never knew just what your hands could do if you let them.
And I'd run to you, if you weren't so far away
Yes, I'd run to you, and we could finally be safe
Sometimes I still hear you breathe, and I can just barely believe
If I run to you, we could run, run, run away
Don't break a sweat, now, for me
Darling, you're on fire
I've got enough regret to anchor me
And you're a live wire
You had me at your fingers, and I held you in my hands
If I let you linger, you'll only break my heart again
And I'd run to you, if you weren't so far away
Yes, I'd run to you, and I could free you from your shame
And after all, can I still face you?
Can we ever be the same?
If I run to you, can we run, run, run away?
I once believed I knew devotion
Cross my heart, I'd cross the ocean
If only I could pull you from the depths
I thought I knew what sacrifice was
I thought that I'd lay down my life once
But only if there's something to defend
You gave it to me with your last breath
And I'd run to you, if you weren't so far away
Yes, I'd run to you, and I could free you from your shame
And after all, can I still face you?
Can we ever be the same?
If I run to you, can we run, run, run away?
Devil Knows
from the heights - track 3
This road is cracked and worn
This road I've run before
But each time I end up farther from my faith
My heart is made of ash
And you've got one to match
That's what happens when the world goes up in flames
And now I'm running with my vision clouded
You know they put the fear of God in me
And now I find myself with ghosts surrounded
I'm on my knees, but it might be too late
I've always
Been afraid of high places
And not much for brave faces
But you take me higher than I've ever been
I face my final days
And I've got no resting place
Because my love, you are the deadliest of sins
Do you look back and wonder
If we'd break one way or another
And what it was that split me clean in two?
Devil knows I do.
Air's thinning, don't look down
You said I've burned you out
But there's still smoke filling up my lungs
Shattered windows, broken glass
Scattered down the beaten path
Take me back into the dust that I came from
Mercy is the last thing I deserve
(You heard it first,)
But I lift my eyes to heaven anyway
(I still pray)
How am I supposed to heal these burns
(For what it's worth)
When I still see your face among the flames?
I've always
Been afraid of high places
And not much for brave faces
But you take me higher than I've ever been
I face my final days
And I've got no resting place
Because my love, you are the deadliest of sins
Do you look back still wondering
Why I've spent my whole life running
And what I'm running from or turning to?
Devil knows I do.
One can only get so far on good intentions
Fear can feel like faith if you don't look it in the eye
And if I take the blame, can I be worthy of redemption?
This time if I jump, would it be justified?
Because my love, you are the deadliest of sins
I know you're still cursing me, and damn if I don't deserve it
But don't you pray that I'll come back to you?
Devil knows I do.
Still Alive
from the heights - track 4
Ain't it ever so coincidental
The way you look at me like I'm the sun
Crept into my memories, oh so gentle
Left me standing with a smoking gun
If I'd known your intentions were so sordid
If I'd known you meant to bring me down
I never would've let you in my orbit
Never would've let you back around
Your first love, your fall guy
Your last laugh, your last goodbye
You punch up, you aim too high
You crashed and burned
From the heavens, from the heights
Oh, but last I heard
You're still alive
You took my hand and said,
Only the strongest can survive
Guess I'll never understand
Why I'm still alive
You sent me like a soldier into battle
Made me dismantle my own defense
I've gotten used to falling in your shadow
A total eclipse of my good sense
Don't know if it's what they call lunacy,
Or my imagination running wild
Yeah, I might be behaving foolishly
But I ain't no one's summer child
You crashed and burned
From the heavens, from the heights
Oh, but last I heard
You're still alive
You took my hand and said,
Only the strongest can survive
Guess I'll never understand
Why I'm still alive
Because you held me to the mirror and you forced a reckoning
Oh, you shoved me in the river, and said, "darling, sink or swim"
Then you turned the tides upon me and let them toss me at your whim
Is it a surprise to anybody I may never love again?
You crashed and burned
From the heavens, from the heights
Oh, but last I heard
You're still alive
You took my hand and said,
Only the strongest can survive
Guess I'll never understand
Why I'm still alive
The Long Haul (5am)
from the heights - track 5
Midnight's come and gone
I see light from the dawn, or the waxing moon
Voice in the dark,
There's a hole in your heart like an exit wound
Breaking the silence in an act of defiance
Like it's made of glass
Can't let it lie, you won't get a reply
But you had to ask
Left some words unspoken, undone
Better leave your heroes unsung
But it's 5 am, and I'm dragging my bones
But I finally feel like I might be coming home
Made it after all
It's light again, I'm still on the line
Do I have to say it, or do you know you're mine?
Everything else is so small
Right out the gate, oh
How quickly placated you skeptics, all
Awake in the small hours
A light from the watchtower, a sentinel
Fell from the clouds
Found a corner of ground to wait out the storm
I didn't come here to make friends,
So why are you waiting at my door?
But it's 5 am, and I'm dragging my bones
But I finally feel like I might be coming home
Made it after all
It's light again, I crash into your arms
As long as I'm able, I'll be where you are
Everything else is so small
I've run out of steam with my nerves all kinds of frayed
I'm starting to think that I've been here before
But you know what to say to make me lower my blade
Funny the ways that the body keeps score
I'm 5 hundred feet of the ground
And from where I'm standing, can hardly make you out
But I know that you'll break the fall
It's light again, I'm washing ashore
And I think that I've finally found what I've been looking for
I'm here for the long haul
Everything else is so small